2.12.2009: Numero Uno

Hey Guys..

This is my first posting so I'll tell you a little bit about myself. My name is Nicole (hence the name..). I'm 19 years young. My last birthday was the best one I've had in a long time. I live in the Mini-snow-tah.. it's way too damn cold for me here. I'm going to be moving to Tennesse most likely within a few years. But don't worry, I'll be back to visit all ya'll. On the surface, I'm your average teenager. But on the inside, not so much.

I started this blog to help get my feelings and emotions out. I figured it would help. Even if nobody reads it, at least I get to "talk" about them, ya know? I'm taking this stress management class and we had this assignment today that made me realize I have an issue with keeping my feelings and emotions in. After doing that for awhile, I just blow up at people.. Usually the ones that love me most. I have a friend, Mark, who does the same thing. Only he's worse than me. He will rarely talk about what's on his mind even if someone asks him. I, on the other hand, will talk about them to certain people if I feel comfortable enough. And usually only if they ask.

I'm going through a tough time in my life and just when it seems to be getting smoother, I go over another set of bumps. It all started about 2 and a half years ago. It's almost like it happened overnight. One day I was walking around the house complaining that I was bored. The next day I had so much to do and only so much time. It's been hectic ever since. When will it slow down?

It began junior year of high school when I started the PSEO program where I can take college classes and the state pays for it. I started dating a guy I ended up staying with for a year and a half that year too. That's a story for another day though. Don't wanna scare you away on the first blog, ya know.

My girls are everything to me. I'd die without them in my life. They've helped me through everything without hesitation. Same goes for my family. They'll be there for me forever and always. They've loved me unconditionally even when I was going through some tough stuff last year. If anyone fucks with them, I'll kill them. Or at least scare them a little. When it comes to them, I don't play around.

I absolutely love going clubbing. I normally go 2-3 times a week. Thursday, friday, and saturday. I love partying too but clubbing is first on my list. I love meeting new people. Especially cute guys. ;] I taught myself to twerk too so now I'm not as afraid to dance with guys in the club 'cause I know what I'm doing now.

Speaking of friends, I have more guy friends than girl friends. Why? You ask. Simply because guys have less drama than girls. It's a proven fact. Girls jump off the deep end about nothing. Yeah.. Guys fight. But when they fight at least they usually have a reason. Girls usually fight cause some chick was looking at her man or something dumb like that.

That's about all I have to say for this one. I have much more to say in coming blogs though so stay posted ya'll. ;]